A Jogger in Prayer

My Lord God Almighty,

Save him. Please. Save him. Please. Please. Please. I’ll do anything. Oh God.

I was so stupid. How should I know? He was just so weak. I was so stupid. I’m sorry.

He was waiting to be bullied. Imagine a person jogging around the park. He would run for two blocks then walk around four then run one block then walk around two then run half a block then drag his feet around six. Then I can hear his heavy breathing from halfway across the park! I mean what was that? I felt like Captain America as I mock him with an “On Your Left” whenever I pass him by.

God, please. Please. Please. Please. Please. Save him.

I am so sorry. How should I know that he was sick? Why would he jog in the first place if he would endanger himself? It’s his fault!

Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Its mine. I should not have pushed him. I should have not taunted him to a race. I should not have called him names. Oh God, I am such an ass.

He just heaved and he fell. Then he did not move.

Oh God, save him. Please. Please. I’ll do anything. Just. Save him. I can’t live with myself if he dies. Please. Save him.

Help him. Please. I beg you. Just let him live. I’ll change. I’ll be better. I’ll… I’ll…

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Blogtober Challenge 11: Sneak Peek Clumsy

Today’s post marks that I am currently 1/3 of the way to completing all Blogtober Challenges.

Today, I am supposed to share a sneak peek behind-the-scenes look of my blog.

Struggling To Be A Human Being has not even celebrated its first monthsary yet.

This blog is new, thus, I have no routine yet as to how I fill the blog up with content. I am still struggling, actually. As of the moment, I am still adjusting to the responsibility of posting everyday via Blogtober, making connections with fellow bloggers, desperately trying to gain more reach, and providing more crisp and engaging visuals to support and colorfy my posts.

Despite that, I have been writing for two years now. Even then, I had no proper routine. I wrote when when I wanted. I posted my content when I felt like it. Yet, as a writer, I have more concrete processes on how I conjure my content than on how I materialize them into cyberspace.

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Blogtober Challenge 7: Struggling to Name My Blog

Who would have thought that I could continue on my Blogtober Challenge streak? This is considering that I was on layover on Melbourne for the past five days. This meant that I had early morning wake-up calls and late-night arrivals at the hotel. I have to admit that I have written the last two Blogtober Challenges while my eyes were half-closed and my brain half-asleep. Forgive me for its poor execution.

Well, now that I am back in the Philippines, I am alive, alert, awake, and enthusiastic. Yeap, that’s an old nursery rhyme. And yeah, I’m also convincing myself that I have already recovered from the lack of sleep.

For today’s challenge, I was to share about how the name of my blog came to be. This is the story of Struggling To Be A Human Being.

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Blogtober Challenge 2: Mightier Than The Sword

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Welcome to the second day of my Blogtober challenge! I am not only welcoming you but I am also welcoming myself! I have yet to stick to a commitment and hopefully this will be the first.

I was tasked to share my favorite quotes. Well, I have so many so if I stated them all here then this post might even be twice as long as my first Blogtober entry.

I do 90% of my blogging on my tablet. I use a USB keyboard case to get the job done. From the outside, you can only see purple synthetic leather. Once opened, it reveals the keyboard and a list of quotes that I have written at the inner side of the case. These quotes are reminders of who I was, who I am, and who I aim to be. Some are just so fun to write down along with the others. They have no order of importance as to how I will write them below.

Fun Fact: Each quote can be traced back to a specific fandom, character, or celebrity. Yes, I am a fangirl. Deal with it. I will write below each quote and a shorty as to how it is relevant to me (or not.). Let us play a game. Let us see if you can guess from which are the quotes taken from. Ehehehe

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The Price of Authenticity

It is said by the greatest of people that…
-You can stand out from the crowd
-You can be the red in all the white
-You can choose to ride against the current
…and my personal favorite…
-You can swim upstream.

Why? Beating the odds, changing the status quo, shaking common belief, and being unique is the key to a fulfilled life. It is the key to having the change that you desire. It is the key to have your dreams come true.

There is one catch. I have been swimming upstream for so long that I feel foolish for realizing it just now.

When you swim upstream, you swim alone.

It is a choice that you have to make.

Pacis

There is only one single task in this entire world that you will fail at no matter how hard you try.
That is to try to please people.
Don’t. Just don’t. Don’t even attempt it.
You will just get tired and worn out.
You will just end up in digging a grave for yourself.
Be who you are.
Be your faulty, silly, quirky, and beautiful self.
At the end, people will judge you no matter what you do.
Be judged for who you are.
Then any form of judgment thrown at you becomes acceptable.
That judgement is irrelevant.
No opinion is important enough for you to change who you are.